for-you-only re review
February 03, 2006
*So the reason that I (Charmaine) am doing the re-review is because Megan hasn't reviewed in two months. So I will not notice any changes in your diary. However, I did read your original review so I know what to look for. The original review can be found here
The first entry that I read was the one about your and your opinion on voting. The end turned out to be a sad one. However, I want to encourage you not to give up so quickly. Everyone has been shut down numerous times - that's the way life is. But if we can't learn to pick ourselves up - then what was the point in trying in the first place? Learn from your mistakes and analyze what could have be done better and then try again. If you fail, it's not the end of the world. Have faith in yourself. I realize that that would have been tough, and I probably would have shed some tears too, but I don't want you to consider this as one of your "failures" (as you described it in the beginning of the entry. So things went a little wrong ... it's okay. Don't be afraid to try again. Because when you suceed ... it will be all the sweeter.
The entry after that one expressed some anger. Instead of cleaning up all by yourself you could ask your friends to help you. One time I didn't ask when some people came over and I was stuck to it all by myself. I told them later that if they don't help next time, we aren't going to hang out or have parties at my house anymore because it was fair for the to "hit" my house and run. They agreed to help next time and when they forget I remind them or I let it go (all depends on the size of the mess :P).
This entry is my favorite so far. I like how you expressed yourself and the adjectives you use have deepth and meaning to them rather than the normal adjectives that people use like I am "mad" ... but you also said that you have tension that roars up and down which is like watching an ocean on mute. Here is a good quote that I really liked.
Then take the pain, depression, uneasiness, and desperation and then add this tension. Tension that is not continuous, not steady, not a buzz, but a wave. The wave of tension roars up, and then down, but entirely silently, like watching the ocean on mute.Take this underlying pain, hidden depression of unease and unrest, and desperation and ocean of tension and then add expressive song. This song is of grieving, of long lost pain, sorrow, but so much more expressive. A song with no words, just a loud roar, muffled with a blanket of reality.
At the end of that entry you say you "hate words". It is true that sometimes words don't bring justice to what we want to speak or the feelings we wish to describe. I do agree with that, sometimes words are meaningless to me as well. Especially when I can express myself the way I want to. That is why I am trying to work on expanding my "vocabulary of use". I have a wide vocabulary of undersanding, but I don't use a lot of the words that I know. Sorry that was way off topic.
In this entry you feel you existence is a question. That's a good thing actually, because then it spurs you on towards finding a purpose for your life and trying to complete yourself. Of course you can always choose one way or the other (the better path and the worse one). However, I am at peace with my future. I have no idea what I'm going to do, but I know what Someone else has it planned out for me and I just have to choose to follow the better path for me or pass it up and do things my way (and I've learned the hard way that that RARELY works out :P).
Throughout your diary I noticed a theme: you always write about how miserable you are. It's good to get those things out and sometimes it helps to see your feelings written out on a page (at least for me; in a way it helps me sort through things). However, it's not a bad thing to write about good things. My diary used to be the place where I came to write down when I was sad, lonely, hurt, or angry (there are more emotions to be sure) but I've realized that I don't want to sound like I'm complaining about my life. Because I look at life as a gift. Tomorrow isn't guarenteed. If something funny happens - record it. I want to know if you are ever happy.
Now onto the layout. I do agree with Megan on some points. I do not like the template at all. The navigation looks alright but the entry box is what bugs me. The font is really small so I have to concentrate extra hard to read the screen (not a good thing after an hour or so of reviewing a person). And in my browser the boxes are just a tad bit long so I have to scroll down the whole page to see the rest of the entry (even after I've scrolled in the entry box).
I think you could do a lot better in the layout area. You consider yourself a creative person - get a creative layout. Unless this bland on describes you the most...then alright. Just easier font size to read and a better layout setup.
As for extras your cast page is extensive. You definately put a lot of work into that. You have pictures and everything - very well done. Puts a face to the names.
The navigation links work and you have a link back to the site. You're pretty easy to contact too.
And that about sums it up.